So it has been a long time since I have updated this blog
There has been a lot that i want to update like
a) the fact that i cycled for more than 3 km that one time
b) the books that I read
c) a few lessons that was fun to carry out in class
however, i found myself not to have time.
5 weeks ago, on one friday night - I called a friend and told him that my life here in that school has reached to an all new low... the phone call was very depressing.
After that phone call, i took leave for a day - the resting time didnt help
however, i went to JB for one weekend to remind myself that my life is actually bigger than the school
it worked - i went back to work determined not be affected by gossips and rumors.
I tried to do all the responsibilities that i was given, and i was given a lot
under the pretext that a new teacher cannot bargain, I was quiet, and did the best that i can.
i was given the task of
1. Training and managing the hockey (male and female) for 2 major competitions
2. Managing the cricket team
3. Managing the cricket club
(this is a science school, all these are as active as an epilepsy attack)
4. Training the Drama team
5. Training the debate team
6. Training the International Symposium team
(again, a science school, all very, very active)
on top of
7. 25 periods of classes (2 form 5 classes)
8. An extremely active english club
9. a 24 hours warden duty
you might say that I'm complaining here, and i did complaint, I went and see my PK KOKO, the pengetua, the PK1 and told them i had too much. they say that they have not enough teachers, and i have to endure all that until new teachers came
and my prayers was answered, 9 new teachers reported
2 of them knows hockey, I asked the two of them to help
and the senior teachers decided to say that i was trying to exert my seniority by pushing my responsibilities to the new teachers.
I asked them for help, i didnt give them the driver's seat
so the plethora of gossips begin
they who once had been my friends turned and stabbed me in the back
they reported the big boss men all their slanted opinions about me
they started to scrutinise every single responsibilities that i had and concluded that I couldn't do things well
I was shunned
the new teachers, now knowing full well of reputation treated me with disrespect - not even as a collegue
I started to falter and they pounced on me
on top of everything my form 5 students decided to be difficult
and to teach those arrogant bastards a lesson, i didnt enter their class
the senior teachers decided to pounce on that too
and them came the panel meeting- where i became the scapegoat for the big boss men decided to announce that English panel is the most problematic panel (despite the fact that our pointers were the best and our club is the most productive)
one teacher decided to say that I mess everything up
i will never forgive her
this was two weeks ago
and now here i am, back in this hole
i took another leave today, hence my time to blog
i write her to vent, i know i can rise above all these, i've faced worst
now i know that in school, i am surrounded by foul mouthed backstabbers..
one day I am going to stab everyone - from the front.
Homestay Shah Alam
4 weeks ago