Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Revelations in many roles

I shouted as though my lungs were hurting when it strikes me that Theater class has ended. I was very relieved, the whole time when i was still in the period of hating the class, i forced to look for the silver linings - there must be one, at least one...

When it ended, i actually took a moment - yes, Azhar takes moments - and look at my group members, we did good, we were awesome. We had fun at the end game. I realised a lot of things, learning experience is what i describe theater class now, before it ended i described it as @&%$#@ experience. Learning experience, not just about theater, but about communities and people and myself. I mean, one thing about theater is that - i was forced to hld several roles at a time, and with each roles i learn one thing, and here - i want to break the roles one by one;

Azhar Khan as a Friend

Oh yeah, we fought in our own group, i know now that i dont know how to socialise, i have the social skills of an iguana. I messed up a lot in the group, and sometimes the people that were affacted by the mess i made can either be patient or act out. They say i have problems explaining myself (thus similarities between me and an iguana, have you ever seen an iguana socialise?). So, this is what ihave to learn --> Socialising 101: Its effects and when to limit oneself

Azhar Khan as a Manager

Oh dear, I am a mess. I am the royal incarnation of everyone who has ever been called a klutz. I have this problem that i always pushed my worries into the subconscious and i wont think about it again. And that is what i did with my group. I have problems also to manage people, i mean, i have to hold on to the fact that i cant make everyone happy right? Alas, i tried and failed miserably, either i needed to be mean and be hated by my group members and make the theater a succes, or just shut up and drink in every crap my group members threw my way and make the theater a flop. I dare say i did a little bit of both, and the theater turn out to be a succes... that is what i called nasib baik. But, we paid our dues, we wroked hard for that succes man, you have noooo idea....

Azhar Khan as a Director

I am not as creative as i think i am! Yeah sure i told my actors on where to exit and where to enter, but it will result in confusion still, even i had taken sometime off to sit and think of my often stupid decisions. Off telling how my actors should act? Here comes another problem... should i pushed them? or should i not? Telling the crew of what to do is also depressing. Off all the theaters, i think my group have the simplest lighting directions and music (i have only four music, how little is that?) but still it results in chaos while we are rehearsing - thank god everything went perfect for the final performance. I am so scared of telling people what to do, need to be more brave...

Azhar Khan as an Actor

Are you kidding me? Sure i got the award for best actor when i was 11, but come on! i had only 2 lines for a five minutes play, and other boys were all extras, there was no other actors, of course i got that award. Now, i was confused with my own character which i have created myself, what should i be, how should i speak? Are you kidding me? I cant act, the iguana can act better than me. The important thing is that i tried, and some people (who i think are really nice) actually said they liked me (even when i only have like 5 lines).

Azhar Khan as a Scriptwriter

This i enjoyed the most. I love doing this, and when people actually said they liked it, i am so relieved, the feelings is as though an iguana can finally fly or smile. When the lecturer asked me to cut a lot of scenes i was sad as hell, you see, i have this weird relationship with things that i write, it is just that, well, ok i Love them, it is like my baby, so who likes to hear that their babies needs tweaking. Okay, okay, i know, i am weird.

So, those was the many roles that i had when i was doing the course. Damn, i learnt a lot, and hate to admit!

Habuk:  Laa... tu la pasal, sape suruh ko gile kuasa

Azhar: Suka hati aku la.... ko sibuk apasal?

Habuk: Nengok macam aku, satu je role aku; lepak kat blog ko yang busuk

Azhar: Kuang ajo! huiiiisssshhhhhh (tiup)

Habuk: I'll be back!

Friday, October 9, 2009

Habuk dan aku

Azhar: Uhuk... uhuk (batuk)... mak aih, apsal dah berhabuk da blog aku ni?

Habuk: Pasal ko da lama tak update la... aku buat la sarang...

Azhar: aish... sapa bagi ko kebenaran masuk plak?

Habuk: Aik... aku nengok takde sape... aku masuk la... cam best je dok sini...

Azhar: Aih ko... memang nak kene ni... aku busy je la... tu aku takde masa nak update blog tu...

Habuk: Ah... alasan... cakap je la ko pemalas! Pemalas!

Azhar: oih... melampau kau ni... da la ko masuk kawasan aku... pastu boleh nak kutuk2 aku...

Habuk: Yang ko tak reti nak update blog ko apsal?

Azhar: Oih, ko sape? Perlukan aku explain pada ko... ko bukan sesape untuk aku...

Habuk: Kalo camtu... baik aku terus stay kat sini...

Azhar: Baik ko blah...

Habuk: Tanak!

Azhar: Ish ko... aku tiup ko je kang ko pegi hinggap kat blog orang lain...

Habuk: Aku tak berani la blog orang lain...

Azhar: apsal?

Habuk: orang lain cam banyak pengaruh... kau macam sikit je... bukan ramai pun follow blog ko... hehehe... kalau aku hinggap blog orang lain, aku kene serang ramai-ramai... ko takde sape nak back up...

Azhar: uish ko... melampau betul... nasib baik ko habuk... kalo ko adalah orang, sudah lama aku piat telinga ko...

Habuk: so aku stay kat sini k...

Azhar; Ko ni... tak berseri blog aku berhabuk... blah!

Habuk: Ala...

Azhar: Blah!

Habuk: Tanak!

Azhar: Huuuiiissshhh (aku meniup)

Habuk: Aku berterbangan ni... but aku akan datang balik!!!!!

Bahawasanya perbualan di atas adalah lebih daripada apa yang anda baca... mesej nye ade, selain dari nak memberitahu yang aku dah lama tak update blog.