Notice my Bahasa Melayu?

I have been keeping a blind eye about this.

Since I was attacked by people's comments in some Malaysian famous author's blog, i have been keeping a blind eye about it.

'it' refers to the rise of the GMP, a group of activist who tried their hardest to cease the teaching of Math and Science in English.

look... for the sake of the GMP, let me converse here in BM, the real BM that we use everyday...

Sedih sgt macamane org politik boleh menggunakan pembelajaran budak2 sebagai gerakan politik diorang...

yang jadi mangsanya kite...

Penulis2 tersohor semua sanggup kuar jalan2 macam org tak cukup ilmu kat atas jalan raya tu bajet melindungi bangsa... apa yg diorg dpt? kasik goverment tekejut sekjap.. pastu gerakan tu jadi kayu api untuk membakar wadah politik diorg... ape lagi? slain dapat gas pemedih mate... slain dpat muncul kat muka depan surat khabar tempatan... yang kecohnye tahan tiga hari... ape lagi? bebudak kat skolah tu jadik pandai ke?

yang jadi mangsanya kite...

Kalo diorg bising kalau kita memberi impression kat bebudak (student) yg bahasa melayu bukan bahasa ilmu... daripada dirg dok sibuk2 pi jejalan kat kotaraya bawak sepanduk tak tentu pasal... baik diorg pi habihkan masa, wit dan tenaga pi translate sume ilmu yg dalam bahasa inggeris baik arab baik perancis baik sepanyol baik latin dalam bahasa melayu... martabatkan lah bahasa melayu sebagai bahasa ilmu...

diorg ni sume kuat melatah... (ye, kalo ade org GMP yg baca menealah ni, YES, I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU)... melataaaah je keje... takot sgt ngan bahasa inggeris... yg pemain2 siasah ni pun satu... brani kau memperkotak-katikan mase depan bebudak ni dan juga kami kerna permainan politik ko...

yg jadik mangsanya KITA

tau tak cane yg asalanya cakap inggeis ni bole hebat? Punya la diorg stadi bahasa org lain, dok pegi kota Baghdad tu, curik sume ilmu yang ade pastu diorg translate jadik bahasa diorg... pastu jadik la ilmu untuk diorg aplikasi kan dalam hidup diorg... tu diorg bole ebat tu... kita nak cipta ilmu baru dari tiada kepada ada... usaha baru sekerat dua... baru nak anta satu astronaut ke luar angkasa... nak bising lebih!

Pi la tolong bebudak ni ngan cipta ensiklopedia baru dalam bahasa melayu... cipta la banyak2... kalo ade org kate mmg da ade... aku tampar muka org tu smpi hilang gigi... mmg la da ade... tapi kalo aku tak nampak kat kedai yg aku slalu pegi... maksudnye susah la kanak2 ni sume nak bace... pegi la org2 GMP skalian... tak yah ko nak sibuk2 bising kat telinga pemain siasah tu sume... do buang mase je wat pe?

yg jadik mangsanye kita...

berhentilah oi... dah la... tak payah cari pasal lagi... daripada dok bising2 ni... baik kita concentrate cane nak selamatkan saudara kite kat palestine tu pun lagi bagus... lebih berhikmah... peluang dapat rahmat Tuan punye dunia lagi cerah!

Notice my Bahasa Melayu? With a lot of 'bahasa pasar'? This is how they speak it in this country... a shame to the beauty of the language... GMP, if you really want to save BM... repair this first!

The Colour Pink

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O Darkness brags your boring smell,
Come away from my doleful knell,
Ay, Through this hole I solemnly fell,
To me, I see no cure to this tale...



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Until then,

When my soul is free,

When I’ve found my answers

When I've regained my steps,

When my hands can freely move,

When my heart allows me to...

Until then,

I will smile again...

Flow

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A dire need to prove himself,

he wants to dodge the double eyes,

a pair from a friend, a pair to look down for,

He is treading on the floor of lies he built so scrupulously,

leaning on the walls of pretence he defended so fiercely...

yet he is yielding to every thing that he sees...

he is a lie...

A desperate desire to prove himself,

a desire which made him succumbed to hatred,

a desire which has destroyed himself...

Ah... now he is on his knees...

crawling, and crawling and crawling and crawling...

yet he is getting nowhere...

he is full of disappointments...

now and forever....

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When the sun goes,
I delved into sadness most.

The day has ended, yet...
I haven't been a person yet.

I dove into the big abyss,
of everything that had gone amiss.

I realised,
That I've ceased to remember,
I need to surrender.

Al-Fatihah

Lemony Snicket once describe the surprise of death of a loved one so accurately that I feel obliged to share it here; You know when you are walking up the stairs? You step your feet confidently one by one expecting there will always be a step after another, but suddenly one of the steps is missing, and you fell, with the shock and the horrible sinking feeling in you tummy that would never end - that is how death is, it'll fill you with horrible, horrible surprise that would never end.

A friend's father died two days ago, he was SO young, it was a sudden death and there - I said sudden, it was a shock beyond anything. I could not, I could never wrapped my brain around that idea, losing a parent - I would never understand that, and that is what grieves me - I cannot imagine what my friend is going through, I wanted to understand - but I just cant.

This is one of those times when people say that we should feel the empathy - to put oneself in other's shoes and experienced their pain - believe me, This, is not one of the times.

When you lose a person to death, you are not only losing him, you are losing the IDEA of him, his presence, his idiosyncrasies, himself, and that is what pains me. My friend is one of those people who are VERY attached to his family, and I know he feels the pain thousand times more than I do, and that pains me too.

A few months ago, another friend of mine lost his father, his father have been sick for quite a long time and his father died in front of him, while he was nursing him. His mother died a few years ago and now both of his parents had died - now, this is another idea that my brain just cannot comprehend, I felt sad for my friend but that was just about it.

Scores of my classmates attended my friend's house for the funeral but none of us - none - knows what to say to him, the idea is too alien and I am really, really, really sorry that my friends have to experience it.

Al-Fatihah for
Allahyarham Bakry bin Abu Bakar
and
Condolences to his Family
and my friend.

and to everyone who have lost their loved ones

I Urge You to Think

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'Dan katakanlah "Telah datang kebenaran dan hilang lenyaplah kebatilan: sesungguhnya yang batil itu sememangnya suatu perkara yang memang lenyap.'
(al-Israa':81)

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'Dan (ingatlah bahawa) kehidupan di dunia ini tidak lain hanyalah
ibarat hiburan dan permainan semata-mata: dan sesungguhnya
negeri akhirat itu ialah kehidupan yang sebenar-benarnya;
Kalaulah mereka tahu'
(al-Ankabut:64)

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'Sesungguhnya Tuhanmu sentiasa melimpah-ruah kurnian-Nya kepada manusia tetapi kebanyakan manusia tidak bersyukur'
(an-Naml:73)

Women, Feminism and Chauvinists

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*When I say 'women' and when I refer to them as 'they' in this posts, it does not mean ALL women, this is just for them who call themselves feminists

My mother - the strongest woman I have ever known - once taught me that I need to respect women, and she emphasized on the fact that I should never hit a woman. I used to wonder why did she taught me that, because when I was small, my sisters (were not perfect) but they were such nice people that I thought my Mother did not have to remind me that - but, when I grew up, I came to know about the existence of feminism, and I thank God that my mother taught me what she taught, because I need the reminder so that I can brace myself against the feminists' pholisophy.

Now, I am not here to say that women are evil, but feminism is. Feminism is a philosophy that was birthed when women in America who fought their hardest to vote. The thing is, feminism was a must when women was still deprived of their rights, I respect(ed) that, but you see, I have never given Feminism a serious attention until one day, when I was in my class (trying my hardest to grasp the idea of linguistic), my female classmates and my lecturer started this talk about women's rights and how chauvinistic men can be.

In the midst of a heated argument, suddenly a male classmate piped in his opinion, which I think was quite rational - If women wanted equality SO much, why men still have to carry heavy things for them? Why men have to open doors for women?

Now, I am not saying that men want to stop being gentlemanly, but I was just wondering why do men still need to play our role as a man if women are not interested in being a woman. In the heated argument, my lecturer suddenly fired a question at us - Why do you boys hate to go to the kitchen so much? Will the act unman you?

I was bewildered... for one, I as a man, loves to go to the kitchen to either eat or cook - because I want to eat. Most men knows how to cook. I admit that there are some men who don't know how to but this is not the case, the thing is - our eastern culture does not define men to stay in the house and ready the household, men's obligation is to bring in the money, and to take care the welfare of his wife, mother, daughters and sisters. At least this is what Islam taught us to do, if taking care the welfare of the wife is to help her cleaning the toilet all by himself, so be it - that is his obligation.

I admit that some men in the past (and present too) are chauvinistic, they deprived women of their rights to even to speak just because they are the weaker sex, so women learn how to be strong, until to the extent that in some countries when men have stop depriving women of their rights, women still have their feminist movement - they do not want to cook anymore, they want to bring in the money - fine, but they still have some obligations to fulfilled, when my lecturer asked me that question, it tells me something, women are actually ashamed of their own roles, they think their responsibilities are second-classed by what men do. They think that cooking is not as good as doing some jobs outside and bring in the money in, they call this patriarchal.

Now the feminist situation is even as bad as when a man replace a pregnant woman in a corporate office, they say that it is sexism. They would say that 'Why do I have to be replaced just because I am on a labor leave?'

PRIORITIZE please, your biggest role is to be a mother, not a worker, why would women think that being a mother is secondary that being a worker? I would never understand this, this is not sexism, this is common sense. When some women stop working and become a mother full-time, other women would say that they are stupid and submitting to the laws of a chauvinist...

Dramatic much?

The point here is (before some women will come out to get me), women sometimes are campaigning even to those who are not chauvinistic. Both men and women are born with their own respective roles, own up to it, embrace it, and do not ask more that what you can actually do.

So It Begins

I just hope the posts here will provoke thoughts and will hopefully create changes...